So this last week I set myself the challenge to combat my biggest fear food…cake. Everyday I have baked cakes, starting with pancakes, then little carrot cakes, scone/vanilla cakes etc. All made with spelt flour, avocado, stevia etc, so healthy but tasted no different to normal cake. I now have 5 in the fridge for … More Fear foods
So yesterday as advised by my psychologist, I wrote my declaration. I promise, a commitment that I will stick to no matter what. And today, sticking with the promises I made yesterday and have started today, it has helped take some of the decisions away from me and the persuasion of the voice in my … More Declaration written 05 April 2019
Ok so after 3 weeks not weighing myself, not calorie counting (although my brain always does an estimate at the end of the day of habit) trying to do opposite actions as much as I can ie if a voice tells me no, wait until tomorrow or don’t have a little bit of chocolate….going and … More Seriously?
The last few days, I feel some real progress has been made which I am super excited about…but also feeling a bit scared about at the same time. The last few weeks I have been really ill with a bad cough, not sleeping and feeling sick at times so its not been the best week … More 26/03/2019
This week. Wow. 🙂 I have been watching a new girl on youtube, i can relate to her sooo much.Shes english, has also had this problem for years like me, has also been in recovery around a year, similar to me, and everything shes says im like omg…you are me haha. So I can really … More Progress Progress Progressss 🙂
How life has changed. Sometimes, it takes me a day like today to realise how much my life has changed, how much I have to be thankful for, how much I have to be proud of to realise…wow. I don’t often get these moments as much as I used to due to my mind being … More How life has changed.
Today I am breaking up with Ed. Breaking up with my eating disorder once and for all. Not weighing myself for the past weeks has given me so much freedom. Not tracking calories has freed up space in my mind for friends, work and fun. Not counting macros has let me follow my cravings and … More Breaking up with Ed.
The last couple of weeks I have been feeling a lot more relaxed. Around food, life, social situations and just in general. I think a lot of this has to do with the stress that has been lost from the excessive calorie counting and needing to fit to a plan whether that is restriction or … More Feeling more relaxed
what a week :). Or nearly two weeks a should i say. I started off counting calories a bit last week to see how much i was having and hungry for and was having around 1850-1900 for around 5 days, then i just felt so stuffed so started listening to my appetite and eating healthy … More 11/03/2019
weigh in today 49kg. Although body fat has gone up to 21% not surprising after the other day. However, I am writing this now to remind myself and keep going and not let this get to me or bring me down. I will not weigh myself for another 2 weeks now and continue the way … More 01/03/2019