How life has changed. Sometimes, it takes me a day like today to realise how much my life has changed, how much I have to be thankful for, how much I have to be proud of to realise…wow. I don’t often get these moments as much as I used to due to my mind being … More How life has changed.
Today I am breaking up with Ed. Breaking up with my eating disorder once and for all. Not weighing myself for the past weeks has given me so much freedom. Not tracking calories has freed up space in my mind for friends, work and fun. Not counting macros has let me follow my cravings and … More Breaking up with Ed.
The last couple of weeks I have been feeling a lot more relaxed. Around food, life, social situations and just in general. I think a lot of this has to do with the stress that has been lost from the excessive calorie counting and needing to fit to a plan whether that is restriction or … More Feeling more relaxed
what a week :). Or nearly two weeks a should i say. I started off counting calories a bit last week to see how much i was having and hungry for and was having around 1850-1900 for around 5 days, then i just felt so stuffed so started listening to my appetite and eating healthy … More 11/03/2019
weigh in today 49kg. Although body fat has gone up to 21% not surprising after the other day. However, I am writing this now to remind myself and keep going and not let this get to me or bring me down. I will not weigh myself for another 2 weeks now and continue the way … More 01/03/2019
As writing the title for this blog, I just realized that today is the 4th year anniversary of moving to Barcelona. Hehe how time flies. Anyway, this week I have been feeling great. It took a few days for my stomach to stop hurting after the binge I had at the weekend, but feeling more … More 28th Febuary
My whole body is aching, my joints, my skin stinging stretched, head ache, back and to to the bathroom and just feel like sleeping. But strangely…my mind doesn’t feel too bad. Yesterday a binge hit…again. Although it has been a while since I last had one and Have felt recently that there has been times … More So done with this. 25th February.
🙂 heyy. haha. So today wanted to do a bit of writing to check where I am up to since things seem to be a bit more on track again. I contacted a therapist as my Dad persuaded me to when I was back in England last week and am feeling so optimistic and excited … More 23rd February
Just got back from England today. Such a great weekend. I surprised my Dad for his birthday and had such a nice time catching up with them and my friends :). For the first time in 6 years being in England, I actually felt like somewhat of a normal eater. I did my food diary … More 18th February 2019
I haven’t wrote for a while. So I think its time I wrote a little since I feel so much has happened in the last few months for the good and bad. I don’t know whats happened but recently I feel almost back to square one and more anxious, trapped and like I don’t know … More 10th February 2019